a letter to my ex and my best fren.

i don like to bother u either but from my personality, u should know that i don like to keep things in my heart. y? bcos rather to misunderstand, i rather have things cleared n' clarified. y? bcos i can never b like u, keeping everything to urself (or mayb that was the past, since by now, u should have attended countless of communication class which have successfully transformed u into a communicator.)

on last Sunday when i met ur gf, i wanted to pass her a letter which i wrote for u a year ago. u said u'd take it next time as u were running late at that time, but next time doesn't come. everytime when i read it, i'd shed tears bcos the content was something so meaningful to me at that point of time. this situation now is exactly the situation when i wrote the letter. i woke up in the middle of the night again, so i decided to write u this. NOT wanting u of anything, but to share what's in my mind.

i m not trying to make life difficult, y would i? u think i've nth better to do? but i juz feel it's not fair and since when? since i met ur fren. yes, Roy asked n advised me a lot of things. he asked if i felt anything when i posted the comments on facebook. i didn't know that i've so many of profile followers or viewers since i couldn't c them in the first place. i seriously felt bad n' down during our conversation. i was thinking, was i really such a bad person? now my question, DID i ever mention names? DID you ppl ever ask who was i talking about? do u know that assumptions will kill pple? what i said was something general. but everyone seems to think it was targeted at u. n' that's y pple feel that i'm the bad person, whereas u r the good person who suffered silently. I think expressing one's thought is about freedom, it's not about who's right and who's wrong. since that day onwards, i didn't have good night sleep. i spent nights thinking about these things (mayb u think i shouldn't waste time, let me tell u, i'm made of flesh, i'm not heartless, that's y i feel emotions and reflect on them). it was as if something bad was coming. every night i woke up with stabbing pain in my chest like it has been stabbed for thousand times. i would say that woman's sixth sense is really great. so Sunday came and the rest of the story u should know it better than me since i suppose ur gf would have told u everything. well, it was what i've always predicted isn't it? i've told u about this thing even when we were together. i suppose this is what u call the law of attraction. i didn't blame any of u. in fact, i felt touched bcos "she wants me to b the first one to know abt the truth" or "u guys think i should not b kept in dark". i truly appreciate it. but to think of it, u guys actually didn't tell me anything, i was the one who guessed the thing right.

and yes, i told Roy, if that does make u feel better, juz tell u that the comments have nth to do with u..n' for the sake of my best fren's happiness, i told her it has nothing to do with u either. Yup, that's to make u feel better. I thought it'd b better so i can take this all alone. but i'm done with all these sufferings. Y should i bear all things on my own while u can enjoy ur life like nobody's business? y do i have to bear the image of being a bad person when the breakup involved both u and me? yes, the comments weren't about only u. it also involved some other jerk who made me sad. so i'm refering to all. so it wasn't you, wasn't ONLY abt u but it includes u.

but i think God lets me know the truth for a purpose. i kept all things from u since breakup in intact bcos i wanted to c which day i would not shed a tear looking at those things, i kept them bcos i wan to maintain a good memory but i realised, there wasn't any. finally the day came when i came home after u "accidentally" sent the text. though still traumatized, i stared straight at the roses candle holder i felt relieved. however i didn't remove them. bcos i felt since i m not sad anymore, there's no need to remove. juz take them as normal decoration in my room. but this time after many disappointed meetings with frens, i think i should and i'm brave enough to pack ALL the stuff and pictures to b totally discarded.

for all our pictures, pair souvenirs from frens, couple decorative items, n etc. they have always been under my care. u never have to worry. u never have to bear the sadness n' pain to look at all those things after the breakup. the things that u have were from me. but the things that i have were from u and from us. so i bear triple pain compared to u. so back to the question? WHY do i have to bear this alone when u r suppose to b responsible for this? that's y i want to return all these emotional baggage to u, to let u feel how i feel. but u said juz throw them away. oh, that's how "thoughtful and responsible" can u be. n that's how disapppointed that i was.

n i feel sad n disappointed it's not bcos both of u hook up together. it was bcos u 2 were pple i trusted the most. n to think that u lied to cover for that accidental sms and she kept this for the sake for dunno how to spell it out for me. y can't u guys b frank? juz say things straightaway? y do i have to b the one to guess it? for me, it was like losing frens who played important parts in my life. frens r important to me n it felt like pple juz slice a skin off me.

i asked munhwa to pass all emotional baggage on behalf of me, altho' my mum disagrees because she forbids me to ever see u again. but i think it's gonna b a hassle to my best fren so i decided not to burden her. in my memory, the good guy whom i spent 7 years of my life with, has disappeared. the person reading this is juz a normal guy whom my best fren is dating. so i suppose all these emotional baggage won't b effective to u after all.

on the other hand, my younger sis has been very worried about me. n dunno since when, she took over the tasks of my 7 years ex. She texted me in the morning until nite. chatted with me on the phone. encouraged me when i was down. worried when i cried or tried to bite myself.

to the guy whom i spent my 7 years, thank u for the happiness, sadness & traumas.
to the guy who broke my heart, nth u do will able to compensate for what has happened.
to the guy who lied over the text, u seriously disappointed me bcos in my memory, u don't lie.
to the guy whom my best fren is dating now, u muz treat her well, take good care of her and remember, she has no 7 years to waste.

we never had the chance to talk properly after the breakup. i had a lot of things to say n ask but there's no need for it anymore. let things vanish as time goes by which i hope it will.

to the girl who is reading this, i'm sorry but i've no choice to discard all the pair souvenirs that u bought. i really love them n' would like them to stay where they are but u muz understand, for the sake of our frenship, these things can never be kept. n' do not shed a single tear when u read this bcos u r always a strong girl to me. i wan to remain that impression for the rest of my life. n pls, wear that dress i bought for u. i really love it when i tried it on. it's lovely. n' i only buy what i love for u bcos whatever u have from me, i have one for myself.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

*singing*

i'm dreaming of a white Christmas....with every Christmas card i write....



this is my favourite Christmas song and i'll even sing it when it's not Christmas time.

it gives me a sense of joy..



now we r coming to the end of the year, i would always call this the time of sentimental because this is the time we will review back all the things we've done thoughout the year. this is also the time where we will slow things down n' reflect on our thoughts.



to all my students, have a blessed Christmas.

always remember to count your blessings

keep in touch! i m blessed to have all of u as my dearest students.

LOVE YOU ALL :) *HUGS*

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Final Week (Sept - Dec 2009)

Dear all, Please note that this week will be the exam week. Do check eAdvantage for the final exam time table. For EF group 8 & 9, should you DO NOT want to come for Tuesday (1 Dec 2009) revision class, you may come on Monday (30 Nov 2009). Monday CG01 2pm-3.30pm Tuesday CG02 2pm-3.30pm I'll be checking the marks with you on both the days before submitting to Ms. Arlini. I'll also post the marks on the notice board outside English Department on Monday. Please see me if there's any error for your grade. Thanks.

2012 2012 2012

Since the opening on Thursday, 2012 has received very good response from the public.

Although having many halls, the tickets were mostly sold out.

To avoid disappointment, I am volunteering to buy the tickets the day before we go for the movie.

Please confirm with me your participation in this movie.

I'll need $$$ and your student ID to purchase the tickets.

Please see me in the office on Monday.

Or Option 2, someone buy it on that day before we go.

Any other suggestions??

Former EF students are also encouraged to join if you are free on Tuesday :)

Die Die Die

Sei lo,Jenny wants i participate her blog,but i don't know want to post what kind of thing. And hor, participation carrys 5 % le..~~~~

2012

Dear all,

Please be reminded that next Tuesday (17th November 2009) will be the 2012 Movie Day for EF classes.

We will meet in Mid Valley at about 5.30pm cos' my class will finish at 5pm.

But you guys can go there earlier if you wanna go shopping.

Yesterday when I went, the cinema was not packed n' I think we should be able to get the tickets even if we buy it on the spot next Tuesday.

By the way, The Time Traveller's Wife is romantic :) For those who are into slow romantic movie, go for this one :) It's definitely better than Benjamin Button.

For transportation, I will be driving Jiayie n' gang. Yuin Teng will go the the other girls. N' Ahmad will pick up Teddy n' gang. N' i suppose Looloo n' gang has no problem going as well rite?

Whoever who doesn't have a transport or not sure how to go, please let us know so that we can arrange transport a.s.a.p.

THANKS :)